Carissa Daniel

I'm A Work In Progress

As a part of my daily devotions, I routinely search my heart for any un-serving emotions, feelings or thoughts I may be holding unto. It is my opportunity to check-in and bring awareness to how I am feeling and to release and let go of any energies that may be weighing me down.

This morning was no exception, I checked in and realized that there was in fact something affecting my emotional space. I then allowed myself to become curious as to the underlying energies behind what was consuming my focus. What I found was nothing I ever imagined.

One important lesson I've learnt, since practicing to tune into myself is, 99% of the times what I think the issue is, isn't the real issue and by allowing myself to dig deeper and to excavate, the true issue inevitably reveals itself.

This morning's excavation showed that I had a deep seated belief regarding my past choices. I felt that I made several bad choices and mistakes in my life and I was carrying around the associated guilt and unforgiveness for myself.

This was a big one. I can honestly say that I have never knowingly processed these thoughts and belief. Of course I remember telling myself at different times that I should have probably made a different choice and chose to give my attention to the lessons the situations presented. However, unaware to me, I was carrying around this burdensome guilt.

This old programming was playing itself out, affecting my relationships, experiences, the way I was showing up and the way I was seeing myself. 

I openly welcomed the golden opportunity to face the un-serving belief and associated feelings. I then willingly allowed myself to release them and let them go. 

I'm always amazed by the power of releasing and letting go. It has the immense power to bring clarity, truth, lightness and peace. No longer do I feel burdened by my past choices. Now, I am able to be grateful and thankful for them because I am able to clearly see how each and every choice led me to where I am now.

The experience also re-enforced the importance of self-reflection and self-awareness. It also reminded me that I am a continuous work in progress and by the power of grace, I am always healing, improving, growing and expanding.